This is a message to you from your 31 year old self. I know you have been through a lot. You have been to hell and back in a lot of ways. You have been born with a mild physical disability known as Cerebral Palsy. You have had several surgeries, You have some slight deafness in your left ear; You have gone through bullying at school, feeling such things as anxiety and depression, you have been feeling lonely at school, you have always desired such friendships but have face rejection at times, you have been through anorexia, obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), and dealt with ongoing weight issues, have felt inadequate at times, and even felt to be seen but not heard.
Please remember that things ALWAYS GET BETTER.
You come from a loving and supportive family. You always have. Even if at times it feels as though you felt there wasn’t any support – there always was and will always will be. You have always shown such brave and courage at all times. You have always shown such compassion and kindness to other people. Even when other people haven’t always shown the same courtesy towards you.
Know that bad times do pass:
Don’t be so hard on yourself. Bad times do pass. Although you did grew up faster than you should have, you always were a loving little girl. And please know that you did the best that you could under the circumstances, under the cards that you had to play. While; baby girl you can’t change the past (although you might won’t to) you can learn from your past. See your experiences as making you stronger.
Don’t allow your challenges define you:
Let’s be honest, honey, you do have some challenges – and I won’t lie there will be some challenges to come, but you are one brave soul. You face anything with such determination and strength. You are willing to anything a try. But it is your faith – you courage in facing adversity head on that makes you stronger every day. Actually, around this age, you may have not realize this, but this was the beginning of your spiritual awakening. You were never alone. Yes, it was a frightening time, but darling, you never walked alone.
You are a girl and soon to be woman have MANY TALENTS!!
While at nine years old, you may have not seen how truly gifted you are…..but as you become older – you truly become a shining light on this world. You discover your purpose in helping other people in the spiritual, metaphysical and paranormal realms, and this is truly a heaven sent to you. You are also a truth seeker – you are here to make a difference (as everyone is in this beautiful world). You have such a love of learning as you get older and you will continue to learn things to help other people. In your heart – you will know what to do next.
You are LOVED:
Please don’t doubt that you are loved, sweetheart. I know at times, you felt as though you didn’t fit in, and you felt the need to please other people. But you are indeed loved. At school, I know you craved for friendships, but it wasn’t until you become older that you become friends with many different people from many different walks of life. Know that love comes in many different forms and you are wholeheartedly loved by many people. Don’t worry – you will find that special man one day. He is out there!
You are the FLYING EAGLE:
At 31 years old, I had a vision of myself while meditating and I was in the USA. The vision was of a Native American initiation or ‘rite of passage’ ceremony for Yuki tribe. The Chief (who is the head of the tribe) was known as ‘Chief Wild Dog’. He gave me the name ‘Flying Eagle’.
In Shaman or Native American mythology the Eagle is the only bird that can fly higher than other birds. Eagles are seen as close communicators with Spirit, God or higher realms of Divine intervention. Eagles are also seen in mythology as seeing the bigger picture, wisdom, strength, deeper insight, ability to see hidden spiritual truths, and grace achieve through hard work.
What I mean by this, baby girl, is that you work very hard in all that you do and in all that you are. Like the flying eagle – and hence like the Phoenix (which is a unique mythology bird) you rise up every single time.
Have faith in all that you do – you deserve to find happiness and success!
Honey, everything is going to be alright. You will be alright.
I love you xx
Your older self xxx